All of my heart.

"Have you seen those "wall words" that people hang in their homes for decoration? One of the most common sets is "Live. Love. Laugh." The idea behind those words is to live every moment, laugh every day, and love beyond words. What a nice sentiment. But can you imagine living this way? Or sharing life with a whole group of people who live this way? That's exactly what the earliest Christians did when they got together to form what is known as the early church. But they weren't just united by a sweet saying. They were radically changed by the very Spirit of God, and their lives overflowed with life, laughter, and love for each other. Today as you read about the early church, spend some time asking yourself, "Do I have relationships with other believers like that?" How does your church compare to theirs? What are some ways you can live, laugh, and love more deeply today?" -  From my deep dive bible study on youversersion.com 


Since I've started going to North Palm Community Church, I've surrounded myself with friends who have the same beliefs that I do. I haven't forgot about the others. Just because I'm a Christian doesn't mean that we cannot be friends. That's something many of us deal with. Is being bullied and tormented for believing in something you cant see. But, you can't see true love, or the love for a wife from a husband, the only difference is that this love is MUCH deeper. His plans are always great. And everyone has one. He gives you opportunities to do things for him or against him. No matter your past, or anything, YOU CAN BE SAVED, AND FORGIVEN. I ask God constantly for forgiveness. It may not be that I had sinned that day or not. I still seek forgiveness. I want to be the best person I can be for Him. And it's only because of Him I'm alive. I had someone tell me the other day (not going to name any names about their gifts and stuff to be respectful to that person), but they told me that they believe Satan has been trying to kill me since before I was even born because of the impact I'm going to make. Which is something you don't usually hear. All these years of thinking I just had bad luck or it was a bad day but it was satan the whole time keeping me from what I was supposed to be doing. I'm still struggling, I feel Satan's biggest weapon is my health. I believe he is the one who has made these things happen to my body, because when I get into a hospital, and I'm alone, I get those depressing thoughts and asking God "why me" when the whole time he was probably looking down at me telling me "my child all you have to do is ask and you shall receive".


I had a scare a week ago, I have a bed sore that had (what looked like a piece of bone that had come out of it. And I immediately got afraid. Last time something like that happened I was put in the hospital that night. This time I decided to take a different route. PRAYER. I asked my leader to get a couple of others to pray over the sores and over my body for healing. It hasn't happened again since. In fact all of the wounds are getting significantly smaller. Because of all of the blessing God is giving me I'm going to give him one of the few things I have to offer to him, time. I've made a covenant, I'm not going to date or look or anything for an entire year. I'm going to focus on the relationship that is the most important. And when there are times when I feel like he needs more from me, I'll fast. I'm so overwhelmed with joy lately is unbelievable. I feel happier than I ever have. I've gone back to the Brittany I was before my accident; still loud, still outgoing, loving life, but with a deeper and greater love for God. He is almighty, and amazing, there is just no words to describe how I feel with him, and the connection that I have with him. I am constantly working on my relationship with him and I will NEVER stop. I'm so thankful for the blessings He has given me. But, if you're reading this and you don't think you deserve forgiveness, or you cant let go of something. Put it in God's hands, let God take over all of that stuff. The only thing he wants to be on your mind is him. He'll make sure that everything is taken care of, and that, I promise.