Stronger with you

Tonight God really had to pick me up off of the ground. I didn't even realize I had fallen and was beginning to doubt him a little bit. And almost resent him for telling me I'll be healed and waiting so long to do so. But I'm not getting out of this chair for me, I'm getting out of this chair for my savior, my God. Through this miracle he will touch so many lives. I can only imagine what all he has planned for me. I am yours God. I am yours. I speak life into those who have decided to stand still, instead of running and jumping for your joy. I speak hope in the lost Lord. I pray for my friends family member and he family while they go through this difficult time. Help this person come to you, find you somewhere in those four walls. God, I just pray health and safety over my family. I pray success over my sister in her new job. And I pray you continue to open doors and lead me through them God. I'll go wherever you take me. Without you, I wouldn't be here today. For you have saved my life multiple times. Though I may not always understand your reasoning, I will blindly follow you, because you love me God. You love me Jesus. Your story through me will be great. I continue to receive your constant healing upon my physical and spiritual self God. Your love just pouring over the wounds, and with the blood of jesus healing every imperfection. I can't wait to sit with you God. Stand with you and look at my life, and hear your cheers of celebration for the righteousness I brought to you. I find such a blissful peace when in your presence. God, I thank you, I thank you. In Jesus name I pray, amen.

Harry surrenders.

For those who are wondering, the name of each blog is based off of the song I am listening to. 


These last two days have been hard. Not physically but spiritually. God gave me a chance to go hang out with the friends I once had, and go back to the life I once had. And I knew as soon as I walked in, it wasn't where I wanted to be. I wanted to be at PUSH (pray until something happens). We started at 8:30 and went to midnight, we could've kept going for an entire week. No one wanted to leave this room, filled with such love, joy, sacrifice, prayer, sadness, glory, righteousness. I started in my chair and God spoke to my heart, telling me that because I was in my chair I was bound, I needed to get out of it. I transferred into one of the chairs, and then the floor. At one point I was praying so hard for a friend of mine I began to weep. I could feel His disappointment, I could feel him trying to help, but he couldn't because of the doubt in their heart. Which I completely understand because I doubted God could heal me in the beginning, but now I know that he will. He healed my depression, my anxiety, muscle spasms. And has given me so many blessings for being obedient. I've had Psalm 3 on my heart since yesterday, it's really pulled me through spiritually these last two days. Putting my headphones in and reading this over and over, in my head and out loud. 

A David Psalm, When He Escaped for His Life from Absalom, His Son

1 God! Look! Enemies past counting! Enemies sprouting like mushrooms,2 Mobs of them all around me, roaring their mockery: "Hah! No help for him from God!"

3 But you, God, shield me on all sides; You ground my feet, you lift my head high;4 With all my might I shout up to God, His answers thunder from the holy mountain.

5 I stretch myself out. I sleep. Then I'm up again-rested, tall and steady,6 Fearless before the enemy mobs Coming at me from all sides.

7 Up, God! My God, help me! Slap their faces, First this cheek, then the other, Your fist hard in their teeth!

8 Real help comes from God. Your blessing clothes your people!

"Up, God! My God, help me! Slap their faces, First this cheek, then the other, Your fist hard in their teeth! Real help comes from God." Without God, these last two days would have consumed me. But instead I embrace them. I embrace Satan trying to find a way into my light. Because there is a fire burning inside me for my God. And no one, and nothing will ever stop me. God comes above all else. If he asked me know to give up everything I owned I would, because I know that he will provide. I keep reminding me these things everyday to continue this war Satan is waging with God. And I rebuke Satan, and every demon and everything he's trying to do in my life and others around me, and if your reading this, for you as well. Compared to God, Satan is nothing, not even a grain of sand. I was discouraged, but by some encouraging words from friends, and diving into His word and by shutting the world out, I'm okay. I was getting the hugs that I needed, just by worshiping in my bedroom. God, is so good. 


As I was praying and worshiping I was reading Psalm. I had started from the beginning a couple of days ago, and last night I started over again. That's when He shared Psalm 3 with me, then He shared Psalm 5. I prayed for the lost, the suffering and those who are empty. I prayed that there would be a REVIVAL in God here in our city. A REVIVAL that will be heard world wide. 


Just finished my Bible study, a day early. But, it was good. I've started another one and it's 366 days. And it's good. Today at the end it asks: What do you believe about right and wrong? PRAY: "God, I admit that sometimes I act like there's no such thing as right and wrong. But I don't want to do what's right in my own eyes; I want to do what's right in your eyes. Help me especially in the area of..."


At first I thought to myself and said I know the difference between right and wrong. But when I really got to thinking about it, there are times when I don't know which is right and which is wrong. Which is why we seek God. We have to seek God, so that He will tell us what's right, not what we think is right. I feel that in a lot of situations lately. Asking "God, what do I do?" or "what do you want me to do". Instead of assuming that what I'm doing is right. God has a certain path for all of us. I'm just trying to find mine.

Southern Weather

This blog is going to be kinda long. I'm gonna talk about Encounter, my first Cell, how my life is changing, not having all of the answers, blessings I've recieved. And Just where I am at this moment. 


First off, I never realized that Aaron Gilespe from Underoath was the lead singer for The Almost until today. And I love them. So, now I know! I've been listening to them for about an hour or two now. Love them. :D AND For Today's new song Fearless, that's my jam.


Anyway, Encounter. I kept hearing about it and people kept asking me to go. And I had NO IDEA what we were doing that day besides free breakfast and free lunch! lol. But, we had people speaking to us about Jesus, and what he did, the whole day is just indescribable. But, this was the day of my encounter with the Holy Spirit. You know how you'll see people fall down when being prayed over? Well, if I was standing that would have happened to me! It was like a breath of fresh air, and your surrounded by happiness. Almost like your inside a rainbow? Idk, like I said I cant really explain it! I don't know how often they do them at North Palm, but I would definitely recommend it to any and everyone.


This past Tuesday was my very first Cell. Which I thought was like a formal Bible study. But, it's not. We talked about your spiritual journey, and how it's like an emotional rollercoaster just like a relationship you would have with your boyfriend or girlfriend. And we went to Rita's Italian Ice, because they were giving away FREE italian ice. So we did our cell there! I also just recently reached out and asked a couple people to come to the next one or to church, and God surprised me, because they said yes. And it felt good. I've been surrounding myself with positive people and being positive, looking at all of the blessings that I have. The fact that I'm getting more and more muscle movement every week is completely amazing, I was donated 200 dollars to go to FORWARD2012, someone is donating a brail Bible to our church, just so much. Everyday God surprises me. It's different everyday. 


I also just wanted to kinda talk about fasting. For me, it's one of the many ways I can show God that nothing comes before him. Giving up something you do everyday or something or someone you love for a period of time is a way to show him. And if you're going to try and fast, pick something that will make it difficult. Like not wearing make-up for two weeks. Or no soda for a month. Stuff like that. And God will see what your doing for him and you will be rewarded for your obedience! While fasting, take up the time you would use for whatever your giving up and read the Bible, and just get into his presence. Go to youversion.com and find a Bible study that fits what your going through. I also rarely pray for myself. I love to pray for others. I always feel that I get enough prayers, so I like to pray for others. Other believers, friends, family, and people I don't even know yet. I feel like when I'm praying for myself I'm being selfish, but sometimes you really do have to pray to God and ask him things for your growth in the relationship and the path he has you on, because satan is consistantly trying to rip you away from the light. He wants you, and he will do anything to get you to turn away from God. But, with the relationship with God, he will protect you. And it says he will in the Bible. And our father is a father of truth.


At times I feel like I'm in a difficult spot. Because I can't quote a ton of bible verses and I dont know every chapter in the Bible, but I do know that I'm making an effort and learning more and more and praying to God he'll help me learn His word. Right now I'm reading Psalm, it's basically a book of songs, or poems. And they really put things into perspective for you. And helps you through those tough times. 


Also, I'm selling bracelets made of para-cord for 12$ you tell me the two colors and I'll make it happen! I'll have some tomorrow night to show. And also I'll have some Sunday! I'm calling them warrior bracelets, because we are warriors of God. And like para-cord we will never break, we will never get weak and we will never stop fighting this war for our God! The verse behind this project is Judges 6:12 The angel of God appeared to him and said, "God is with you O mighty warrior. (MSG) I'll post a picture of the bracelets on the next blog! God bless!

All of my heart.

"Have you seen those "wall words" that people hang in their homes for decoration? One of the most common sets is "Live. Love. Laugh." The idea behind those words is to live every moment, laugh every day, and love beyond words. What a nice sentiment. But can you imagine living this way? Or sharing life with a whole group of people who live this way? That's exactly what the earliest Christians did when they got together to form what is known as the early church. But they weren't just united by a sweet saying. They were radically changed by the very Spirit of God, and their lives overflowed with life, laughter, and love for each other. Today as you read about the early church, spend some time asking yourself, "Do I have relationships with other believers like that?" How does your church compare to theirs? What are some ways you can live, laugh, and love more deeply today?" -  From my deep dive bible study on youversersion.com 


Since I've started going to North Palm Community Church, I've surrounded myself with friends who have the same beliefs that I do. I haven't forgot about the others. Just because I'm a Christian doesn't mean that we cannot be friends. That's something many of us deal with. Is being bullied and tormented for believing in something you cant see. But, you can't see true love, or the love for a wife from a husband, the only difference is that this love is MUCH deeper. His plans are always great. And everyone has one. He gives you opportunities to do things for him or against him. No matter your past, or anything, YOU CAN BE SAVED, AND FORGIVEN. I ask God constantly for forgiveness. It may not be that I had sinned that day or not. I still seek forgiveness. I want to be the best person I can be for Him. And it's only because of Him I'm alive. I had someone tell me the other day (not going to name any names about their gifts and stuff to be respectful to that person), but they told me that they believe Satan has been trying to kill me since before I was even born because of the impact I'm going to make. Which is something you don't usually hear. All these years of thinking I just had bad luck or it was a bad day but it was satan the whole time keeping me from what I was supposed to be doing. I'm still struggling, I feel Satan's biggest weapon is my health. I believe he is the one who has made these things happen to my body, because when I get into a hospital, and I'm alone, I get those depressing thoughts and asking God "why me" when the whole time he was probably looking down at me telling me "my child all you have to do is ask and you shall receive".


I had a scare a week ago, I have a bed sore that had (what looked like a piece of bone that had come out of it. And I immediately got afraid. Last time something like that happened I was put in the hospital that night. This time I decided to take a different route. PRAYER. I asked my leader to get a couple of others to pray over the sores and over my body for healing. It hasn't happened again since. In fact all of the wounds are getting significantly smaller. Because of all of the blessing God is giving me I'm going to give him one of the few things I have to offer to him, time. I've made a covenant, I'm not going to date or look or anything for an entire year. I'm going to focus on the relationship that is the most important. And when there are times when I feel like he needs more from me, I'll fast. I'm so overwhelmed with joy lately is unbelievable. I feel happier than I ever have. I've gone back to the Brittany I was before my accident; still loud, still outgoing, loving life, but with a deeper and greater love for God. He is almighty, and amazing, there is just no words to describe how I feel with him, and the connection that I have with him. I am constantly working on my relationship with him and I will NEVER stop. I'm so thankful for the blessings He has given me. But, if you're reading this and you don't think you deserve forgiveness, or you cant let go of something. Put it in God's hands, let God take over all of that stuff. The only thing he wants to be on your mind is him. He'll make sure that everything is taken care of, and that, I promise. 

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